Suppose to be in bed now and waking up at this hour meaning there goes my bed time . So much for planning to sleep early today . Well have been spending time at home and not going anywhere far .still wishing to get away from this country but i have not enough cash this month . Next month would be a better one i hope ? because bonus pay will be in and also school will be starting .

Life has been great , No worries and burdens since its holiday now ,also preventing myself from bothering over stuff letting it to takes it's nature course. I used to forced things ended things to be screw up , this time I wouldn't wanna things to be turned out this way .

I really wanted to let you know but I know this time I have to take a step back because I knew this is not my chance at all or i can say no chance at all . Just hoping for a little hope i guess ? Ha no matter what , I really need to pull myself up and stop falling into situations that i don't wanna be in anymore .

friends have be telling me how many years i have got ? I guess my only answer is my whole life is my time , I can spend my whole life waiting for the right one .

I knew it impossible but I just totally felt Things not suppose to left hanging down there . I never try i will never know .